1/15/2009

Denise Type Love!

I want a love!
(With 'want' being the key phrase instead of 'need' mkay?)
But wait........... like what/where/when/how love type love?

I want a love to relate-some-shit before and during our relationship type love. I want a love like you hassling me to do my homework while you do yours too type love. It's actually tight after exhausting brains when we tell each other what we just both gained in knowledge from school or our days type love. I want a love like you opening doors for me, you talking on the phone to keep me company cause you know without me confessing that I'm actually a tad bit paranoid and scared while I walk or bus home alone. I want a love where it's not just about the material things cause he knows I can buy my needs and wants but those type of moments where it's just him that I need and want type love. I want a love that'll crack mushy gushy lines just to make me laugh cause we both think it's stupid to say those things on a regular basis type love. A love whose mastered the art of tickling the funny bone in my head then we'll laugh at each other's retarded laugh type love. I want a love like it's hella Bonnie & Clyde version 2009; ride togetha, stay together type love. Yenno, you teaching me how to surrender my love type love? Even an attempt to re-make the Love & Basketball or Brown Sugar romance live in reality like on screen cause he knows those are my fave movies of all time type love! A love that isn't too protective but wants me all to himself and vice-versa cause he wants me to stick up for him when other chicks try to holler type love.

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I want a love like us driving past a church while we both do the sign of the cross and after grabs my hand and smiles at me type love. A love to share the wheel once in a while cause he knows how liberated I feel driving especially with his ass groovin' in his pre-made ass-grove in the passenger's seat type love. I want a love where we can rap the Fresh Prince of Bel-air introduction or belt out old school Nsync in the car and not be ashamed when people from other cars stare type love. I want a love like not only us going out to eat for gourmet or fast food, but we also cook together even though you hella over-cooked the rice type love! I want a love like him reminding me to pray before I eat that over-cooked rice type love. Then after dinner or a night out in the town just yesterday, I want a love that'll just want us to stay in and chill with a little bit of video game rivalry cause that's the only game we'll both be playing when it concerns one another type love. A love with no need to wine and dine for me cause if I know the real him, he doesn't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve type love. Or even a love I can "stand still" with, just stare at and be silent around minus us napping the hell out of our day cause he asked me to sing him to sleep type love. I want a love where we can go to parties and get drunk, crunk and fuuucked up but not enough that one can't take care of one another and hold their sht when one's head becomes the toilet type love. I want a love like him not pinky promising his world to me but him showing promises aren't meant to be made but only shown type love. He would even try to pinky promise me but shows it with a stamp just so I can feel more secure type love. But when shit hits the fan I want a love that'll argue with me, not let me win easily but to challenge me to question our attitudes and behaviours in a manner where it's respectful type love. A love that's all about only making up cause we've reached a mutual understanding and not just making up cause the other one gives up type love. A love that'll be worth my energy to fight for, fight about and fight against type love!

I want a freakin' love about compassion and not only about cum-passion type love!

I want a love like him saying how sexy I am when I'm all natural type love. Then say how much he likes me in sweats or in basketball gear than a mini skirt type love. I want a love like him not knowing what to say because he's so speechless when I walk down the stairs with my hair nappy and a big t-shirt on type love. But I also want to be able to knock him off his feet when I fix up, look sharp occasion-permitting or just a surprise for him type love. I want a love like him thinking of me while I'm thinking of him wondering if he's thinking of me then call up one another to say something useless or random to share type love. I want a love like him offering to watch a suspenseful or an adventure kind of movie and me couldn't agreeing more type love. I want him to be the wallpaper on my Crackberry, doing something ugly and stupid to his face just so it reminds me how much I adore him for his quirky imperfections type love. I want a love where it's me and him against the rest of the world but still giving a damn about saving the world alone or together type love. But he has a life of his own and I don't need to be calling him up every hour of the day or every night cause I respect and trust him when it's homeboy day or family business time. A reassuring love that'll remind me I'm his favourite homegirl and would consider me a part of his family one day (with no rush) type love.

"I want a love that is unexplainable as he is."
........... but damn, I don't have one!
After reading this, I need'a get off my ass before I lose my chance to find that LOVE TYPE LOVE!
Haha.

Inspired by "Type Love by Shihan" on Def Jam Poetry, duh. Just bringing it back for ya :)

2 comments:

MLV said...

I hear ya, grrrrl. One day. Haha.

Rm said...

haah
def jam poetry = <3